Well I just got home from my shrink appointment. It went ok. We talked about nelle and andrew and luke and my mom and all my difficulties and conflicts. lol. Then we went to mcdonald's and i got french fries so i'm stuffed now. (sorry grandma i won't be needing ne of that veggie soup tonight!;-)
But just before i left for it I was talkin to Ashly . I hope she doesn't mind but you have to read what she wrote. It was so sweet! I agree with her 110%! I really do feel like i can trust her and tell her stuff. u can read it
at this link.
It makes me happy to know that i have friends that I can really trust and count on. And I just wanna let her know that she can trust me too.
Janelle emailed me earlier. It should have made me happy to hear from her but for some reason it didn't. She basically said that she was sorry she couldn't talk to me and she didn't want what happened with caitlin to happen to her and jackie. (that i understand) She was also worried that luke and andrew were influencing me. o yeah and she asked me to help her cheat on the summer reading.
But my only argument to her is: Why havn't you told her?! I really thought this relationship meant more to you. I've told all my friends and they're my friends so they understand. Including people i was deathly afraid to tell. My whole family knows! I told them because I love you and I really thought you were gonna be a part of my life for a long time. but if you don't wanna tell them then i guess i understand. It used to be the other way around and I was unsure about telling people but now its you.
The other thing the shrink and i discussed is maybe nell and i need a little space for awhile. U know some time to figure things out and date around alittle.
But in my heart I know things will be ok. We just need to spend time together. and if that doesn't work then I'll consider adding space to our relationship. I'm just afraid that if that happens we won't be friends anymore. and i love her too much to lose that. its not worth the risk.