O yeah and I talked to John again last night. I never can tell if hes lieing thats what i don't like. I don't know if i can trust him. It seemed like we had a good down to earth conversation. and he told me some stuff. but who knows? he coulda been putting up a front so i've heard. He does that to people quite often. I was way too nice to him. I just guess i still want him as a friend despite the fact that he never liked me. Or i just sympathize with him or something. I don't know theres not much i can do if he doesn't open up to me . So i give up. Wish i could help! but John If you want to talk about stuff or something call me. U can trust me. My life is just as messed up as yours u might be surprised. too bad you never gave me a chance. It mighta been worth it.