odin225: i think he lost sight of what true love is and instead has gone back to idolistic worship
odin225: yeah
The Rebel Flirt: but i feel that he truly loves me
odin225: yeah he does but define the word love
The Rebel Flirt: to me love is going newhere in the world for that person. Not being able to tell where he begins and u end. Just becoming one. Being content with that person for the rest of your life. Adoring all of their qualities as well as their faults. loving them even though u realize they arn't perfect but kno deep in your heart that they couldn't be anymore perfect for you. being able to let them down and get in fights if it means it'll bring the relationship to a greater level or help them for the better. Being able to communicate about absolutley everything and having no reservations. dreaming dreams and forming goals together. Having a healthy responsible relationship in which you can spend time apart and still come back and feel just as in love as ever. I ask God every day to help me make our relationship healthy and longlasting because I dont ever wanna lose him. I wanna get through this life together. More then anything i want him to be the one i raise a family with. i want to look into his eyes and see his love for "Our" children reflecting back at me. I want this feeling to last forever because at the moment I believe it will. but i also kno that there will be a lot of hardtimes to get through. So i need God's help for that. I see God in our relationship. That's a huge aspect of love. I know that with God's help we can make it out together...


The Rebel Flirt: Oh yes and always knowing what the other is thinking...I know by the way he sighs or the face he gives me exactly what hes thinking. I know when hes not really himself and he just needs some time to think...or someone to talk to...
The Rebel Flirt: I always know what to say to make him happy when hes down... and he does the same for me in every way...
odin225: good job you have found out what love is but has ryan
The Rebel Flirt: how could u ever question ryan on that?


Jess: where'd u go?
Ryan: i
Ryan: i'm here
Jess: then why wont u talk to me?
Ryan: i'm just looking for me
Jess: yea your aweful preoccupied tonight
Jess: well your in everything i said
Jess: i could help u find u if u want
Jess: you are me. and i am you. we are we
Jess: you are the man who guided me in finding myself. You undepressed me. You actually made me really excited and happy about something for the first time in forever. You took me aside and purified me. You taught me morals. You gave me a God. You gave me a good relationship with my family.
Jess: You talked with me about everything possible and we discovered things together
Ryan: yeah...that's the ryan i
Ryan: m trying to find
Ryan: he was a good one
Jess: your still that ryan. You've just had a tough year
Ryan: one of the best
Jess: and we're human so we're bad influences on eachother
Ryan: there have been so many ryans
Jess: odin225: good job you have found out what love is but has ryan
Jess: i dont know how odin could question you on that
Ryan: yeah me neither
Ryan: he knows me better than that
Jess: i thought so too...