I'm going crazy. I feel like a have a term paper due tomorrow and have none of it done. In actuality i have nothing due tomorrow. but i pace back and forth and get this sick feeling in my stomach. I just want to crawl under a rock and never come out. If Ryan doesn't get his college apps done soon then i don't know what I'm going to do. He has so much to do and theres nothing i can do. I've tried everything and nothing seems to work. When i'm mean, i go insane and the results arn't worth it. When i'm nice and send him love he takes a nap. and all the pressure thats on him right now is on me too. I'll be so happy when all of this crap is finally over. If its ever over. He just can't seem to concentrate long enough to get his shit done. and I know in everyones eyes that it'll be all my fault if he doesn't. He'll promise me over and over that he'll get it all done and then I'll just forgive him when he doesn't because I don't know what else to do or how else to handle it.