Ok today was so wierd. 4th period i was ready to commit suicide and 8th period was like a box of chocolates. Thats why i kno i'll never commit suicide. my life is so up and down. one minute i'm depressed and the next i'm laughing and happy. Knowing that it won't always be so hard is what keeps me going.
I payed attention in all my classes. In hopes of doing better. altho i got a 50 on a geometry quiz. and found out i'm failing spanish. i tried. i really did. i even did hw at school. and stayed after for extra help in two classes. when nell and andrew came in the room i was so involved in my work that i didn't even notice. It feels good to work hard.
The other thing i did was change my style. I wore girly stuff today!!!!! its just not me. a little cross necklace with matching earrings and a ring. and girly shoes. it was mildly strange. not at all like the day before where i went to school with a blue bow tie. I like to be different. this change will be extremely difficult to maintain.
Tonight is the meeting for kenya. its at 7. Hopefully uncle wes can take me. i also told larissa that i would try to pick her up since her mom can't bring her. shes suppose to call me around 6. so i have to go soon.
Andrew wrote a strange entry in his dead journal. I really do not know what he is talking about. So pay no attention to it.
And later today someone "whos name i am not going to mention"(no its not andrew) asked if i liked him and then said that i shouldn't. I was like what the hell does that mean?>!!! DO I MAKE IT THAT OBVIOUS!? can people see right thru me? All i said was i can't answer that because thats where things start getting complicated. As soon as i admit my feelings everything changes. So i'll just try to ignore that little convo we had. I just wish you luck you deserve better right now. because your really great .
i g2g get ready for the meeting and start making phone calls. love you all! ciao!