No actually you'd be surprised nell. i'm not happy. I'm just living. gotta live. and who would want to read my blog if it was so sad all the time? So i try to get sarcastic and witty every now and then so people will read it. I did try to call you. but apparently it was at exactly the same time as you decided to go online. how ironic. I want to talk to you so i'll try again soon.