Ryan came over last night!!! I was upstairs studying for SATs and and the dog starts barking. and guess what? Ryan was here!!! It was good because i was in such a bad mood last night so he got me out of it. We only had a couple hours but we looked at the stars and it was nice. but yea thx to his Dad for letting him come over. :-)
I have work tonight and then Saturday. ciao!

DON'T EVER READ A BOOK ABOUT PHOSPHORUS!!!! IT'S EXTREMELY BORING!!

Monday was good.:-) Yesterday I worked and got in a silly fight with Ryan. lol And today's our 7 month anniversary!!!! so I love you Ryan...forever and always->
I finished Killer angels last night. So i only have one summer reading book left. and its shorter then the last book so i should be able to do it. ummm I'm not doing much today. Just tanning and stuff. I work tomorrow and Saturday though.
k thats about it...

Why thankyou Janelle my dear. :-) WIERDO!! lol j/k i kno i was in a very dramatic mood. O well watcha gonna do... love does that I suppose... But everything did turn out ok.
I survived Friday night by burying myself in books when i got home from work. Then Ryan drove me to work last night and he picked up his bike so he can come over tomorrow... Today i had work too. and i got payed!! yayness!! Lenny was so awesome. He's like i gave you a couple extra dollars don't tell the other girls!! and i felt kinda bad for them but i dunno. Its ok with me. lol After tips and stuff it comes out to like $9-$10 an hour. So even if i don't have many hours its not a big deal. That way i can get summer reading and stuff done and still go places.
I found out tonight that this one girl i work with Stef has a sister named Justine and i know Justine because she's best friends with aunt Erin. and i was in the wedding with her and stuff. So that was pretty neat. Stef is really cool. We have a good time.
ohhh the other awesome thing today is i had a chocolate milkshake, an orange freeze, and a watermelon slurpie and then i came home tonight and found out i lost a pound since then. lol I was like wayyyyy cool. I don't mind when that happens at alll. might not understand it but thats ok...
umm tomorrow Ryans coming over then we're gonna go over aunt erin's and going swimming. So hopefully he calls me b4 he leaves so i can tell him to bring his bathing suit...
annnnd hopefully on Tuesday i'm going to wickam park with Janelle. that'll be good... ciao

lmao
your one pathetic girl hun..(shakes my head)..you have my pitty. lol
you got a little graphic there with the gun and the gushing..yea i wouldnt do that too often not a way to capture the reader. lol
well ttys.
everythings gonna be ok!
NELL

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! Why don't you just stab me with a sword and watch blood gush out? My boss just called and asked if i could work tomorrow night. :-( Tomorrow night out of all nights!!!! And well i said yes because he didn't really give me a choice. He just said why don't you come in tomorrow night at 4. Friday!! the busiest night allll week. The night I've been waiting an eternity for. And in a single oblivious yet transitory moment its snatched from me. But you know thats not monumental. I've w...w...waited a week so i can wait a couple more hours before talking to him. and well chances are No Jess! you wouldn't get to see him tomorrow night anyway. No matter how much you want it. It wouldn't happen anyway. Plus you know if i'm just sitting here vulnerable at Ryan's disposal then it wouldn't be playing very hard to get now would it? So its good i won't be here. Yep yep...wow the things one can convince themself of...

I'm so tired. ug...

:-( I've decided that Ryan officially doesn't love me nemore. He hasn't written me or called or anything!! I think he fell in love with another girl at one of those picnics. :P lol O well i kno hes busy. I just miss him so much. and i kno he misses me too. but but...*cries in agony* I guess i'll see him soon. Only 2 and 1/2 more days until he comes home. Then I'll jump in his arms and never let go!! :P
umm sunday Janelle wants me to keep her company at the St. James carnival in Manchester. Every year her gma asks her to help with the face painting. Then after that she wants me to sleep over but my grandmas being a pain in the ass about it because Janelles been calling alot lately. lol so she thinks that we're falling in love again or something. It really pisses me the fuck off. But i guess its ok because it'll be right after Ryan gets home anyway and i don't wanna leave him for an entire 2 days that quickly. But yea gma just said she'd think about it so its still a possibility.
Umm i didn't do too much today but study for SATs and do summer reading. All boring stuff. and i cleaned my bathroom and did a bunch of laundry but thats about it. ok i go sleep now. very tid tid...ni night

i got my first paycheck today!!! wooohoooo!!!! I wrote Ryan a letter yesterday...so hopefully he'll write me soon so i kno the address to send it to. It was such a funny letter...It took me like all night to write because i sat there with a dictionary and thesaurus spending like two minutes per sentance and its 4 pages long...lol i kno thats sad...but i was extremely bored and i reallly miss him!!!! ummm this girl Tammy a friend of my moms wrote me the other day and i just wrote her back... It was interesting because i had to fill her in on the past year or so and it was amazing how much has happened...ok going to write janelle some now...

Ryan came over...:-) We took a shower in our bathing suits cuz he was all yucky from the rain by the time he got to my house...(Totally moral guys trust me;-) and just hung out because hes leaving me for a week as of tomorrow. :-( Going to that Coastguard thing... Stupid coastguard!@! why'd they have to accept him?!! and its even longer then he left me when he went to mike's!!! I don't know if i can handle it...But i stole his t-shirt so hopefully it will keep the Ryan smell for a while...Its funny i end up with all his clothes. Poor guy won't have any left by the time i'm done with him. lol no i give them back every now and then...ok so i dunno what i'm doing tomorrow...Nell wants to see the new mandy movie and i'd like to go but we'll see... I don't work again till sunday...and after that depending on my schedule i might go to moms or aunt g's or something... alright ni night

Went to the movies with Janelle and Nick today. and OMG Nick has a Camaro!!! MY PRECIOUS!!! mmmost excellent!!!! I like it soooo significantly!! lol We decided to name it "Krawl the Warrior King". Nooo relation to How to lose a Guy in 10 Days. noo way! lol So after he picked me up we went to pick janelle up...and she wouldn't let us in her house because it was too messy...but she did bring us out some chocolate chip cookies and they were yummy. then we went to the movies and we saw Pirates of The Carribbean...All of u should definatley see it. It was super good...lol i swear i'm not hyper. So after the movie we went to Janelle's house and we played air hockey...and well i let him win. I just felt bad for him. I couldn't hurt his masculinity like that. ;) Then me and Janelle flipped the recliner chair over again... mmmmost excellent!!! I love doing that its sooo much fun!! Then after that Janelle got a phone call so nick and i played with turner and like always we got in another fight...I swear everytime i do anything with him we get in a fight. lol so he threatened to not bring me home and i stole his car keys and his cell phone...hehehe. and it was so funny he kept getting this whiney voice like:"pleeease give them back!" and I'd make fun of him for it. Thennn we watched Drew Carey and i played with his cell phone...annnd then i stole his car keys again...and then Janelle's mom got home so we had to leave...So finally at the very last minute i gave the car keys back... lol it was so hard...nooo leave my camaro.:`-( and here i am at home typing all this, wondering where my Ryan is... ryan baby pleassse get home soon!!!

O wait i forgot I have to write about how awesome things with Janelle are lately...2 friends couldn't possible be any closer then we are when we're together. lol we pretty much just have to think something and the other automatically knows what it is. And talk about inside jokes we have more then ever. lol and if its nasty no harm done we just come out and say it and then laugh our asses off together. And i think the best thing is I know i can always trust her. I know she'd never turn on me or talk about me behind my back...and she knows the same thing for me. I just love her like wo and I'd do almost anything for her. lol as long as it doesn't include doing anything that would hurt Ryan, or Kim, or any of the human population in general. lol :-P but i kno she wouldn't ask me to do anything like that so its all good. ohh and the best thing is i can take all her clothes and she doesn't get mad at me. lol :P but i guess in conclusion we just kno eachother inside and out from everything we've been thru together. and thats awesome...xoxo love u Janelle

ok well now i have to write a post on how adorable my baby sister is...Shes 3 weeks old...and her name is Shannon Alexandra Lirot...lol i had no choice when it came to the name. I think my mom went psycho. she just randomnly decided she wanted a very Irish name because Danny is Irish. the whole time I was at Mom's i helped take care of her and shes just precious. lol she makes these cute little squeeky noises that scare me. And she cries for boobs:P and diaper changes. lol. On Sunday i let her lay on my tummy and she tried to suck on my boobs thru my shirt. It was hilarious and cute at the same time. I was just like sorry hun but i'm not lactating and your mommies over there. lol We bought her a little Indian dress at the sailfest. wow janelle is reallly hyper right now...I'm tlaking to her online and shes just psycho lol. Shes very prideful about certain things and egotistical about her ass. ok so i guess thats about all. ummm I finished reading Frankenstein, Pierced by a Sword, and Siddhartha so far this summer...My next 2 books look as tho they're going to be extremely boring but i HAVE to read them so i can start studying for SAT's... So i guess thats what i'll be doing for the rest of the night...ciao!

lol jeeez janelle do u ever leave anything for me to write about? lol j/k I still have tons to write. in fact i'm greatful u wrote as much as u did because it'd take me forever to write all that. :-P lol
ummm i just got home from my moms as Janelle already stated...Wed i went to Six Flags with my family(after begging nick to come with me but he couldn't because i told him the night b4 at like 12 am. lol) Aunt G and I sat in the first car of the superman!! woo hoo it was a blast!! ...Then on Thursday I went to the beach alll by my lonesome. Danny my mom's bf dropped me off and mom picked me up at which time she went with me to pick Janelle up. lol Janelle didn't kno where she lives and i couldn't remember how to get there so she had to 3 way call her gma to get us directions to her house...It took us soo long...It was hilarious lol...So finally we picked her up and for the 1st time in what seemed like years I called ryan...He had just gotten home from Mike's beach house and Thursday was his first day of work. We could only talk for a little bit because I was on the cell phone in the car and it kept cutting us off. But it felt really good to finally hear his voice.
umm I'm not sure what Janelle and i did on Friday but i think we just bummed out and sat around the house goofing off...dancing and singing and laughing like wo! lol and those brownies Janelle was talking about really were horrible lol but my excuse is that i was holding a 3 week old baby as i was making them.(which makes it kinda difficult) and the pan was slightly too big...so they just came out kinda thin. so what if yours were wayyy better...lol We've declared Janelle D.D.A. a do do do aholic. lol the first thing she said when she woke up on Saturday morning was DO DO DO!! lol and I'm NBA a but we're not gonna tell u what that stands for. :-P lol umm so Saturday we all went to the beach...and that was exciting because apparently a little boy got lost. and all the life guards were searching the water for him...It made me all sad. I tanned on the beach and listened to Ryan's banjo stuff on his Mp3 player. then janelle and I played frisbee... Kim called us there because she was suppose to come to the fireworks and sailfest with us but she ended up not being able to come...And ryan couldn't go because he had work...lol but apparently he really wanted to go because he told me yesterday that he and the guys at work made a rain turtle out of rocks and a soda can and they bowed down to it and proclaimed their love to try and make it rain. because if it rained they wouldn't have had to work...lol but obviously that didn't work so he didn't end up going. After the beach we all went home and showered and got dressed up and stuff to go downtown for the fireworks...It was wicked crowded and we had to park like a million blocks away...All the stands and stuff were really cool and they had lots of neat Native American stuff. I saw this really awesome and beautiful Dream Catcher. It was huge like the size of a door. and there was lots of pretty jewelery...One of my favorite pastimes but now that i have Ryan's class ring i really don't buy anything like that nemore because i'm not taking it off and nothing else matches it besides my little gold confirmation cross.
The fireworks were beautiful and the sky was perfect. The moon was nearby and complemented the colorful explosions exuisitely. You could see them being set off from the barges and they were going off so fast that huge blasts of fire lit up the sky before they were even ready to go off. Mom and Janelle had a screaming contest and my mom ended up with a sore throat. lol I was too tired and embarrassed to join in. On the way to the food trucks we stopped to watch 2 swans and their babies and the moon glistening on the ocean. Then we ate dinner and i decided my fried dough was far too large for one person...LOL on the way back to the car Janelle and i got kinda silly and hyper and we screamed DODODO!!! at the top of our lungs...unfortunately we didn't attract too much attention. :-P
lol Sunday we made up a song called Jessie the Red nosed human... It goes along the lines of Rudolph the red nosed reindeer only we supplemented Rudolph with jessie and a couple other things.:-P ...
Last night I went to the drive in with Ryan and we FINALLY saw finding Nemo. It was a wonderful experience...lol i get into the car and sitting in my seat is my teddy bear that i've had since i was 5 and i gave him. lol Ryan had him wearing a seat belt and sunglasses. He said my teddybear missed me and wanted to see me so he brought him along. lol It was the cutest thing. So the greatest part is we both hadn't seen eachother for over a week. So we were both all excited and nervous something neither of us had felt in a while. We watched the sunset and the moon come up. And I layed on him in the back of the jeep as we watched the movie. lol during this one part of the movie the seagulls scream MINE mine MINE mine MiNe!! And ryan started hugging me and saying mine. So we had a little "Mine" episode. :-( We had to leave at 11 when the movie was over because his mom wanted him home by 12. But when we got to my house i couldn't let him go so we sat and talked for a little while just gazing into eachothers eyes and an hour later after i stole his t-shirt from him he went home.
Today was my first day of work at the ashford Dari bar... I don't have a ton of hours but thats cool i didn't want many anyway... Just some extra money and something to make me feel like i spent the summer doing something other than hw and hanging out with friends... It was cool because i got $10 in tips the first day and i was only in training...I made tons of ice cream cones and sundaes and milkshakes and hotdogs and hamburgers. O yea and french fries. Many of them...
But i was pretty tired because of the drive-in. And u get all the free food u want....So i had soda and ice cream...
I work tomorrow too. and Ryan has wed off so hes probably coming over. and Thursday I might go to the movies with nell. Friday Doing something with Ryan... Sat he leaves for the air force academy thing in New London...:-( and he'll be gone for a week so i might drop dead from withdrawls. Then Sunday i work again... and depending on my work schedule for the rest of the week i might go to aunt g's or moms or something again...

yea i'm not sure i really like this template much...don't kno why i did it...lol

i made this for my profile yesterday but i don't feel like having it in there nemore...so i'll just put it here now...


I miss my boys!! Ryan and Bruno!:-P...yes my boys are my bf and my dog but i miss them both dearly:-(

*'*'*~Some good times with Nelle this summer~*'*'*

-I'm an ice Cream tree please don't climb on me!!

-do de do dabupedoo de do budupadu.......POOP!!

-Is Wisconsin the cheese state?

~flipping over the recliner and laughing our asses off~

*laying under the stars*

-SWIMMING ACROSS AN ENTIRE LAKE! WHOS GREAT IDEA WAS THAT?=-O
-belching like theres no tomorrowO:-)

-Warming your ass in the fire...lol i still think Heather rubbed off on u...

-"no no no Jessie!! don't eat the dividers!! We have to eat the same amounts!! Otherwise you'll think i'm giving You more to make you fatter. Or less because i want more! " Meanwhile i crack up laughing and spit my water everywhere...:-D

-The chickens ready!! wow that water really was cold:-P

went to the beach w/ janelle the other day...refer to her blog at www.nellesworld.blogspot.com for details. lol

This weekend was tons of fun. I went camping with Janelle. lol we laughed so much and have so many new inside jokes together. Saturday i drank wayy too much soda for my own good and got super hyper. It was so funny because usually janelle is the out of control hyper one but this time it was definately me. lol We went fishing in the canoe and shared some good deep down spiritual conversations. And we layed under the stars every night. lol and then janelle and her insomnia. wouldn't let me sleep at night. stared me awake. And then we'd wake aunt g up from laughing so much. but I missed Ryan sooooo much its not even funny!!! Yesterday was our six month anniversary. So he rode his bike here and we read a little bit of summer reading. Spent some time laying back. Then we went to the dairybar and got icecream. ohh and we brought Bruno with us!!! And then it rained but we still went to the park and tossed the football around for a little bit. And then don't laugh but we went on the seesaw. and it was still raining so our asses got all wet sitting on the seat . After we just sat on the swing together. Talking and enjoying eachothers company. by this time i think Ryan had taken all of my tiredness away. because i was the one that was tired earlier but then i got awake and he was tired. So when we got to my house i told him to hold Bruno while i got him some water and he totally fell for it. I went and turned the hose on and then sprayed him up and down. then i turned it off and the poopyhead pulled me close into a big bear hug so i couldn't get out and got us both soaking wet. Of course that ended with a big messy kiss. So in conclusion it was a wonderful day.:-)