and as far as other things go...tonight i attended an awesome mass at st. joseph's church in charlton mass!! Ivan, a missionary from medjugorje spoke about the apparitions. Everything was just so beautiful!! The level of holy spirit in the room was unbelievable. There were a couple of times where tears just rolled down my cheeks and i knew that things were right. Here are a couple of personal things that reaffirmed my faith that i'd like to share, Mary says to:

-Go to confession once a month=personally i always had a hard time understanding confession. I never thought it was necessary because if u've sinned u can just confess to god personally right? but in the past month i've prayed to god to help me understand why it is necessary and somehow now, i just understand. however in addition to that if u r really sincerely sorry, god will show u forgiveness. I learned this on easter mass when i felt really crappy and god took me by the hands and seemed to have said dear child do not weep!! Be happy for this is the day i have risen!! I kno it sounds really funny but when u go from depressed to joyfully happy in the expanse of a second, when u r sprinkled with holy water its just so amazingly apparent.

-pray often especially with FAMILY=family is something i've totally been working on. Its a weak area of my life. And i WILL conquer it. they do so much for me and i have so much to be greatful for.

-Do not just kno the faith but LIVE it!! =couldn't we all pray harder and put our heart and soul into it?

-Mary asks us to fast on wednesdays and fridays=this is a big one for me because about a month ago i was feeling really horrible about something i did and i was like god just tell me what to do!! Tell me how to serve u better:-( help me to live more faithfully and not sin!! That was when i suddenly felt this urge to fast. It was really random and i had doubts about it so it never really lasted. But now i kno why I felt as i did.

Ivan was super down to earth. He couldn't speak english but he was still really great. My favorite part was when he said: I do not pretend to be perfect, because i'm not. bettering myself, is something i work on each and everyday. It was something along those lines. And then he admitted he asked mary one time: Mother why me? Why did u choose me? And she said: Because my child I was not looking for those who are perfect! lol that was the best part.
Mary really is full of wit. and i think now that i've experienced this i will put alot more into her. I mean like they said: what better way to get to a guy then thru his mother? lol
Afterwards we met up with kessing and ate alot of good food.