oh and another lesson of silly people...
Those who fail to see good in good because of a predetermined extremist aversion, based upon the thoughts of society, which eventually may propel them to insanity.
If it is in God's will, I shall never allow myself to become ignorant of truth...

"The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly."
-Buddha

lol, silly people...
Well i've learned a valuable lesson in the past couple days... "good" repels "evil", therefore "good" must pursue "evil", but ego prevails, and "good" ponders whether "good" should approach "evil". In the end "good" realizes "good" has grown out of "evil" and done all that can be done. it's just time to forget, and move on, to meet and make more "good"...there is only so much one can do in a given situation.
let it be known...it is the end...thou wash thy hands of this hodgepodge...

I'm not offended by the remarks you make, only annoyed. I mean i can't spend ten minutes with you without enduring at least one Christian joke. There's nothing wrong with Christian jokes i just get kind of tired of it after a while. I think i only snapped back before because your response was so ego based and absurd. You have to admit that you DO insult Christians quite often. A joke can only go so far before it is insulting, and a lot of your comments are not in jest. I endure your comments day after day. This is the first time I've actually said something remotely close to insult. The difference between you and i is that i don't play with words. You've said the same as I, only in different form.
I would never judge how smart you are. But i admit sometimes it does take a certain amount of faith and experience to understand the things i am trying to say. I only say that because a year ago i would have contradicted myself in so many ways. It is only from experience that i live what i now know.
My comments were sincere but i don't know if u understood what i was trying to say.
I was only trying to make the point that theres MUCH more to believing in something then scientific evidence. (quite contrary to my previous outlook, its something that you can only feel.) I suppose i should have explained myself further but like i said i haven't been blessed with eloquence lately. If anything i gave the greeks credit for accomplishing what they did. I was only trying to adhere the buddhist concept that everything happens for a reason. please forgive my clumsiness!!!

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When I make comments I make them in the spirit of jest, rather than just to be cruel. And I NEVER EVER insult you personally. I realize you are different in some ways from many other Christians, and I realize that you are offended by some of the remarks I make (although I still do not know why), so I have been trying to work on keeping it down. There was nothing but sincerity in the viciousness of your words and I cannot believe you expect me to just brush it off as no big deal. But then again, perhaps you feel that I am not smart enough to really understand all this.

Di immortales, you are making me tread upon this path of anger unwillingly, but I feel that this must be said in order for you to fully get why I am annoyed at you. Well, perhaps my annoyance is bordering on anger . . . but that's beside the point. I cannot respond to any replies you make to this because, again, I do not wish to tread upon the path of anger as it will only lead to my own destruction. May Moira, Nemesis, and Dike grant you all that you deserve in life.

in addition to the replies i made earlier. I admit i was weak at the time and i let too much anger in. I just wasn't prepared for janelle's reaction. And it made me a combo of sad and mad that she'd just say goodbye like that. Over something that neither of us can change. Especially since I did not want to tell her my personal opinions in the first place. Regardless I'll always be here with open arms...

and as far as other things go...tonight i attended an awesome mass at st. joseph's church in charlton mass!! Ivan, a missionary from medjugorje spoke about the apparitions. Everything was just so beautiful!! The level of holy spirit in the room was unbelievable. There were a couple of times where tears just rolled down my cheeks and i knew that things were right. Here are a couple of personal things that reaffirmed my faith that i'd like to share, Mary says to:

-Go to confession once a month=personally i always had a hard time understanding confession. I never thought it was necessary because if u've sinned u can just confess to god personally right? but in the past month i've prayed to god to help me understand why it is necessary and somehow now, i just understand. however in addition to that if u r really sincerely sorry, god will show u forgiveness. I learned this on easter mass when i felt really crappy and god took me by the hands and seemed to have said dear child do not weep!! Be happy for this is the day i have risen!! I kno it sounds really funny but when u go from depressed to joyfully happy in the expanse of a second, when u r sprinkled with holy water its just so amazingly apparent.

-pray often especially with FAMILY=family is something i've totally been working on. Its a weak area of my life. And i WILL conquer it. they do so much for me and i have so much to be greatful for.

-Do not just kno the faith but LIVE it!! =couldn't we all pray harder and put our heart and soul into it?

-Mary asks us to fast on wednesdays and fridays=this is a big one for me because about a month ago i was feeling really horrible about something i did and i was like god just tell me what to do!! Tell me how to serve u better:-( help me to live more faithfully and not sin!! That was when i suddenly felt this urge to fast. It was really random and i had doubts about it so it never really lasted. But now i kno why I felt as i did.

Ivan was super down to earth. He couldn't speak english but he was still really great. My favorite part was when he said: I do not pretend to be perfect, because i'm not. bettering myself, is something i work on each and everyday. It was something along those lines. And then he admitted he asked mary one time: Mother why me? Why did u choose me? And she said: Because my child I was not looking for those who are perfect! lol that was the best part.
Mary really is full of wit. and i think now that i've experienced this i will put alot more into her. I mean like they said: what better way to get to a guy then thru his mother? lol
Afterwards we met up with kessing and ate alot of good food.

lol ouch!! i'm being attacked by every angle. Well first i'll deal with the greek thing. I admit i had no right to say what i did. but it is my blog, therefor my opinions, of which i'd say a good majority of people would agree with. unfortunately i was not blessed with a diplomatic outlook the day i wrote it. I was just kidna frustrated with everything that was going on. For understandable reasons. You should not be offended by any means. I mean how many times do u make fun of my beliefs? Do i ever even comment on yours? Sometimes people do have off days. I'm human and its hard to always hold the peace. i should have bit back my tongue but u get aweful insulting in the things that u say and i was only defending myself.

And as for as janelle is concerned. I respect what ur saying totally kim, and i dont kno what janelle told u. But SHE asked me. i told her it didn't matter anyway and i didn't wanna talk about it. I told her i'd still be there for her anyways. But she still insisted upon knoing what i thought. So i told her. I'm not going to lie. and she wanted to know. ITs as simple as that. Then she flipped out on me and said that she didn't kno if she could eb friends with someone who didn't ACCEPT her. Well I accept her and love her as she is despite what she says. I just have strong opinions on marriage. And i kno its hard for anyone to accept that becasue i've changed SOO much in the past year. But this is who i am and i can't change that. I will always be here for janelle if she ever needs me, and i understand if shes mad at me right now. But im not stopping her from living her life. I kno how much she loves you. And i know how hard this is for her right now. Your probably thinking, well how can she know how hard this is? But for some reason i really feel what shes going thru. I already told her if i could, i would trade places with her in a second and just take all the pain away. I do anything to just take it all away. I just wish she'd realize that i'm not an enemy. I wish 2 girls could make love and have children together, but that's not gods plan and i feel that in my heart. I can't turn against God. All i can do is pray that some day she'll see it all in a different light .

Et tu, Brute?

Et tu, Brute?

I have spent the past two days trying to think of a response to that statement, and in all that time I could not think of a single response that was not both bitchy and immature. As a result I shall not say anything besides that I am deeply offended by those remarks and that I never expected you to deal a blow that low. I shall maintain my pride, respect, and happiness by giving you the respect that you deserve.

All I will go on to say that in your situation I am reminded of the story of the horse who, impatient with his freedom, allowed himself to be ridden to death. You are not the same person, Jess, and that's both a good and a bad thing.

Final Moment of Wisdom Brought to You By Johann Wolfgang von Goethe: Christian, author, poet, lover of all things Classical, and genius.

-kim

no offense jess, but you're missing the point. nelle knows you won't change for her. she just wished you hadn't said as much as you did.perhaps then you should have bit down on your tongue and told her how you loved her, as a friend, and accepted her, for who she is, and that you'd be there for her when she needed you. not that you don't accept her lifestyle, or WHAT she is....just so that might clear a few things up. and also...you kind contradicted yourself earlier if you read what you last wrote.
sincerely,
kim

grr ok now janelle is mad at me because i told her i can't accept gay marriage. I'm sorry but it's just not something i can accept. I accept her and what she is but even if i don't approve of what she's doing, it doesn't matter. It's none of my business really, and she can't change what i believe. So why are you disturbed by it? DId u really believe i would say otherwise?

Vacation's been cool. ryan's been over alot. worked 2 days. went to a bombfire meditation with mike, toby, ryan at chris k's house on saturday. then ryan slept over(on the couch) cuz he was just gonna come over the next day neway... then we spent all day in the woods. and it was awesome, we went swimming in the river. it really was beautiful. Not sure whether i'll pick up some hours at the dairy bar or just go to aunt g's in arlington ma for the rest of vaca. Saturday is the earthfest in boston. but i have work so i dunno. thursday ryan's going to a belafleck concert with the guys. My new favorite band is The Waifs. They are the best!!
I'm about a week away from getting my dobro. Finally decided on the Fender FR-50. I will be the best of the best dobro players!! I'll practice night and day 24/7. between work, school, and ryan of course. I have 2 research papers and something else(not sure what cuz i can't remember) due at the end of vaca. Yea that's right i'm screwed.
I tanned today and kinda burnt. then got called into work. mm i guess that's all for now. ciao

larissa just because the Greeks invented a few things does not mean their society was civilized. Everything is as it should be. Humanity progresses as it should. We wouldn't be where we are today without history. but Greek civilization and they're religious beliefs are uncivilized and immature. It doesn't take a genius to realize that. no offense to you...

COMPASSION by Mother Teresa. "I smell because I care" COMPASSION.
"I knew Gandhi. He was a prick. I saw him sucking on a corn dog, hitting on Mother Teresa. He kept saying "Who's your diaper daddy? Who's your diaper daddy?" "
funny stuff?
-kim

I don't hate you!

I don't hate you! :D! Feel better!

everything sucks, everyone hates me, the worlds a mess, i'm a mess, I can never do anything right lately... I wish i could just give up!!!
Thats how i feel right now, but i know everything i just said is immature. So I guess I'll have to move on and try to be a happier person...:-/

Mother Teresa's Prayer (a.k.a. the words that give me the strength to go on)

People are quite unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered; ...forgive them anyway.

If you are kind people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; ...Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; ...succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; ...Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; ...Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness they may be jelous; ...Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; ...Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; ...Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; ...It was never between you and them anyway.

i havn't been online in soo long!!!