SO I made it through this week. Did all my projects. Even one that wasn't due for another week. and went almsot 40 hours with no sleep. I must say i impress myself. and wed and friday ryan got to come home with me. It was really awesome. But friday of course i just kinda feel asleep on him from lack of sleep.:P lol but he didn't mind. The only horrible thing was that he had to go home so early. And it was like nooooo don't leave. It just felt so wrong. He was suppose to be right there with me while i slept on him. and my gma invited him to stay for dinner. and then he was gonna meet mom. but no it didn't happen. :-(

OO and I have been looking for Saints for Confirmation alll week long and still havn't found one. Its so frustrating. None of them are good enough. and there are so many. The other issue is who to choose for my sponsor. First I was like well how about Aunt louise because shes a nun and a great person in all. Helped me a little bit but succeeded in turning me atheist because of her whole attitude about life.
And I've really thought about it in the past week. In a timespan of about 4 months Ryan has helped me in more ways than anyone ever could have. Thats where the whole "wow i've grown up so much since last september " statement came from. Because for a while i was excercising my rebelious side. But he made me "THINK" and realize thats not who i really am. I could be so much more. But the great thing is he did it without really knoing. I'd just talk to him or be with him and it would turn me into someone else.
So thats why i think he should be my sponsor. Because i could just choose some random person. like an aunt or something. but she hasn't done anything for me. And Ryan really has and will probably continue to do so.
But then people bring up the argument what happens when you guys break up? And i've thought alot about that too. It seems like we're never going to. but in worst case scenario it couldn't be that bad. I could never just all of the sudden hate him. We'll still be friends.
So i kno people will think i chose him for all the wrong reasons but in reality its all the right reasons. and i don't care what they think. I've made up mind...