Friday!! yayness. ok so that was the most boring 3 periods ever. Totally pointless. We just sat there and talked while sophomores who are participating in the ring ceremony rehearsed. But luckily I had i had some friends to hang with. ok g2g

Wow its been so long since I've really written anything. Sleep deprivation does that to you. What a wacky yet extremely developmental week it has been.

YAY!! ryan is coming over tomorrow. and we're going to have our own ring dance minus my annoying sophmore class(with an exception of a couple of people). lol but but i just cant wait. and sophomores get out of school at 1:30 tomorrow. its great. but ive decided i dont think im gonna go to the ring ceremony either. i dont feel like going to school on a sunday. lol i mean who does. so i dunno what im going to do 5th, 7th, and 8th period while they r aqll rehearsing. Maybe they will let me go to free. Yea definately. alright gotta go. helping my sister with her report.

ahhh that was scary i have note cards to do and our power went out for like 30 minutes!! someone save me!!!

life is just full of fucking surprises

You kno what pisses me off? people that look for pity just to get attention. Have confidence in yourself and you'll get alot further.

lol wow i like just woke up a lil while ago. and i had this like outrageous craving for mashed potatoes and corn. So i made them and now i have a belly ache. too many mashed potatoes...but i also had this dream. and in the dream i was with a bunch of friends. Well not really friends just random people in my class that i talk to once in a while. but i actually think they are jerks. and i was eating pizza, corn, mashed potatoes, and coffee. So thats what made me hungry i suppose.

makes me cry everytime...

Mamma you gave life to me
Turned a baby into a lady
And mamma all you had to offer
Was a promise of a lifetime of love
Now I know there is no other love like a mother's
Love for her child
I know that love so complete someday must leave
Must say goodbye
Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear
Goodbye's the last time I will hold you near
Someday you'll say that word and I will cry
It'll break my heart to hear you say goodbye
Mamma you gave love to me
Turned a young one into a woman
And mamma all I ever needed
Was a guarantee of you loving me
'Cause I know there is no other love like a mother's
Love for her child
And it hurts so that something so strong
someday'll be gone
Must say goodbye
But the love you give will always live
You'll always be there every time I fall
You take my weakness and you make me strong
And I will always love you till forever comes
And when you need me
I'll be there for you always
I'll be there your whole life through
I'll be there through the lonely days
I'll be there this I promise you mamma
I'll be your beacon through the darkest night
I'll be the wings that guide your broken flight
I'll be your shelter through the raging storm
And I will love you till forever comes
Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear
Goodbye's the last time I will hold you near
Someday you'll say that word and I will cry
It'll break my heart to hear you say goodbye
Till we meet again until then goodbye.

I can't sleep i tell ya!!

YAY!!! I'm finally home from mommy's!!! lets just say i watched alot of tv and ate alot of junkfood. lol not my idea of fun but whatever.
I called Nell last night. Gosh its amazing how much i missed her!! its just like wo. we talked for a little while but couldn't for too long because its long distance.
Decided not to go sledding with youth group today. ICky i hate snow. plus i just have so much to do. Homework wise that is and Ryan wont let me forget. He keeps reminding me to do my projects. gahhh and im just like i kno i kno!! Trust me i have not forgotten i remind myself every second of the day. gets kinda annoying but its all good. i just have ALOT to do. and only a couple days left as vacation comes to an end.
i spent soo long getting ready today. i figure its easier to get hw done when u feel pretty. Dont believe me? well try it sometime it always does the trick. lol

or not i guess im goign neway. I dont have the heart to tell her no. only till tuesday or wednesday tho...gawd i hate vaca!!

Ooo so it looks like i might not really be going to my moms right now. I was spose to call her today when i got home from church but i kinda fell asleep trying to relish the memories of ryan in my bed with my teddy bear and fleece (that he dumped an alcoholic amount of cologne on:-P) and that didn't happen. and i also have a shrink appointment tomorrow that i forgot about. So i couldn't possibly miss that. It would be wrong. and then theres also this storm we're spose to have thats dropping 18 inches tomorrow. and everybody knos u shoudln't travel in the snow. (unless its to ryan's house) so its probably better that i just remain home and safe in my bedroom. Doing geometry or biology or talking on the phone. something like that. sound good to you? well it does to me and thats how its gonna be...

it was a wonderful day. Ryan gave me the cutest bear. its so adorable!!
It was so hard letting him go home. :-( we had this scheme. or he had this scheme neway that i would hide in his pocket and no one would notice and he'd bring me home with him. lol quite unrealistic.
so im going to my moms tomorrow and its going to be sad. i cant take these vacations. a week is just too long. and i have so many projects and tests to study for. it ruins it all. ni night...

yay! ryans coming over today!

lol i kno i kno im crazy! i made a blog for my research paper. I'll put a link to it after ive perfected it. for now i need to find 5 more sources and then study for a bajillion tests tomrrow...

I'm soo excited!! i picked my research paper topic finally. Its awesome to have it done. so far i kno that its going to be about pocahontas. theres more than that but i dont feel like explaining the rest.
Ryan's sick. :-( he finally got that bug thats been running around. but its totally opposite of the one i got so can't say he got it from me. :-P
alright the lasagna is calling me!!!

i have the bigest craving for chinese food. (yes i feel better. thank god for tylenol!)

i miss ryan sooooo much!! can never miss 2 days of school ever again. its evil...

friday i am going over nells house!!! yay!!! i have not seen her in so long. so it should be lots of fun. as long as her mom says yes. i already got a yes on my side as long as i promise to help out around the house. weeble like goddamn wo!

and saturday!! i cannot wait until saturday. doing something with ryan. We have it all planned out...should be great.

and now i feel sick again. and i should be studying but i feel too sick. so i will go try to tho neways...

I am sick...too sick to write anything more. hope u all had a good day

friday i worked all day and talked on the phone. saturday i cleaned my room and went over vanessa's and watched a movie.speant some time with ryan. then today i saw ryan for an hour at knights of columbus breakfast. the rest of the day has been boring. thats all for now...

the power of prayer. its great...

WhaleWon: you're such a flirt
The Rebel Flirt: no im not
WhaleWon: u are sometimes
The Rebel Flirt: yea but yea
The Rebel Flirt: so what
WhaleWon: it's hot
WhaleWon: or let's say like cute
The Rebel Flirt: well thanks
WhaleWon: yeah

lol that was funny

uck i feel all sick...and their making me go get the mail its horrible. sarah and i decided that the geometry gave us headaches and mine has yet to go away.
Get report cards tomorrow. It might be really depressing. In fact i kno its going to be so whatever. As long as im doing my best now...off to get the mail...

What a silly silly day. I should never try to stay awake when im tired or depressed. like last night for instance. It was just wrong. but it got me to thinking and i spose thats a good thing. becuz it resulted in total sillyness today. or maybe that was the skirt. i wore a skirt today becuz i finally bought one. and it just makes me all girly and flirtatious. its really quite hilarious. but i think ill stick to the pants. its safer that way. ooooo!! sarah has to do the same geo assignments as i do so g2g

if only life was like love
easy to fall into easy to fall out of
careless and pleasing
yet intense and lustful
confidently unconditional
infinitely wonderful
an idealistic occurance

Gravitation can not be held responsible for people falling in love. - Albert Einstein

ahhh this is horrible!! I stayed home sick today. I'm soo sorry babe. I didn't have time to leave u a message at yahoo. I miss you like so much. and i cant talk on the phone long tonight it was part of the agreement for staying home. but ill find some way around it.
And u ask why did i stay home? well it just felt like a stay at home kind of day. I dont feel like dealing with shit today. And i dont wanna wear a uniform :-P. So this way i get to wear your fleece all day long. too bad theres so many tradeoffs.
Yea i also have a bunch of hw and stuff to get done. and i woke up kinda late today. so it would have been crappy going thru the day like that.
I feel bad about the whole personal thing from sister tho. You think she'll let u serve it another day when i'm there? grr there couldn't have been a worse day to skip. dunno why it had to be today...Melon!!!!

You Are A Romantic Kisser!

You'll only kiss if the mood is right and if you think you are falling in love.

Some may say you're old fashioned, but when you kiss, you see stars!

One kiss from you, and anyone will be hooked forever.



How Do *You* Kiss?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

lol its sooo true!! dont take that quiz tho its on a perverted page...

today was glorious...

If i dont get to see ryan tomorrow this weekend might really suck...